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I knew I was losing my heart the moment I set eyes on him.
I knew I was digging my own pitiful grave, ready to be consumed with the pain of never ending heart break and an oceanful of sorrows.
Like the one I had taken years to come out of. I knew.
And yet…and yet I locked my heart and gave him the keys.
I happily walked on top of the mountain and took a deep breath, closed my eyes and jumped.
I fell into a never ending spiral of tempestuous emotions trusting him that he will catch me.
I. fell. in. love.

He closed the door. A shiver ran down my spine. Anticipation.
I look into those deep mesmerizing eyes.
So many thoughts were running into my mind.
Am I doing the right thing? I am trusting my heart.
But when has my heart ever lead me to a sane path?
All it has lead me in the past were to the steps down the hell.
Had made me fall into a pit full of fire, trusting that some one will catch me . But no one did.
Was I repeating the same mistake? Was he worth the risk? What was I doing here with him?

My heart was telling me to take that plunge and my brain…my brain was telling me to RUN.
I looked at him, into those enchanting eyes that were telling me to trust him and took a deep breath.

He held my face and he kissed me.
He kissed me like he always did, with such love and pure emotions.
Like he is my rain in the middle of the hot summer.
Like he is an Indian summer in the middle of a cold winter.
Like that kiss was the only fix to my addicted heart.
Like I am dying and he is my breath of life.
Damn! this man makes love to me by kissing alone.

The wall around my heart peeled off with the layers of cloths from my body.
I had always imaged us like this. Just me and him, lips on lips…skin to skin.
Body entwined and our hearts open ready to take each others heart and merge our souls.

He looked into my eyes. His eyes filled with such emotions and passion.
Like I was his sun, his moon. Like I was the only thing existing in this world.
That without me he shall die. My heart melted along with my body.

Oh! I could feel his shaking breath. he was so nervous and it made me love him more.
He said “Do you really want it?”
And with that my heart gushed with pure adoration for him, it skipped a beat.
I closed my eyes and the cloud inside my head cleared.
Yes! I wanted this. I wanted him.
I was ready.
I opened my arms and jumped hoping that he would catch me because now there was no looking back.

And then he filled me. He filled me both physically and metaphorically.
He filled my body with his length, my heart with love and my soul with pure bliss.
He completed me.
Like we were two pieces of puzzle fit together, perfectly.
His eyes were filled with love and he worshipped my body with pure reverence.
My soul danced at the beat of our bodies entwined and thumping pulse.
And I thought that oh! this is so perfect!!
We are so perfect. Me and him. Together.

He touched my body.
He touched my soul and I knew….I knew that he was all I have been looking for.

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Lost

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I really do not understand why you love me! How can you? There is nothing left in me that deserves love.

I have just got broken pieces.
Broken pieces to give to you.
There is nothing beautiful inside of me.

I am poison.
I am toxic and a lost cause.

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Never Stop!

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I have always wanted to hold him. Hold him and to feel his warmth, to smell him, to run my fingers down his back when he would kiss me.
And when he finally did, his lips felt so familiar like i have been kissing those lips since forever.
A shiver of anticipation ran down my spine when he held me tight…to never let me go.
He felt so warm and tasted so sweet! I could have kissed him like this forever!! I love him!!

And then he ran his hand over me and showered me with soft kisses on my neck…I shivered!
I stopped a moan from escaping my throat because oh! it felt so good!!!
And right there at the moment all i wanted was to tear that damn shirt off him and devour him!!!

And when we finally managed to move apart all I could think of was locking that damn door and to throw away the keys.
All i could think about was pinning him to the wall and make love.
Make. Love. And. Never. Stop.

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Her lips tremble

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She is afraid to come closer to him,
What if he discovers the devil in her and screams?
Reluctant in letting him hold her hand,
What if he sees the scars of cutting she is hiding under her wrist-band?
Afraid to look into his eyes,
Her eyes hold a tempestuous storm of feelings and emotions brewing like high tides.
She will not let him see the darkness that lurks inside.
And yet her eyes just cannot hide!
There is so much to tell him that it makes her desperate,
But knows that the words will later only make her regret
Can’t make him understand what goes inside her troubled mind,
Tries…but her lips tremble as much she tries,
There is so much pain inside her, so much pain!
It overwhelms her, cripples her and makes her insane.

If only life was as short…as short as happiness is!
If only he could hold her tight…if only he would kiss!!

But she sobs herself to sleep wondering if she will ever feel content and absolute bliss.

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An adventurous ride

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You can’t always get what u want but you can work hard to perfect what you get.
Live your life with no regrets. You are lucky to get what you have right now. Most people can’t even get that close. You deserve to be happy and content.
Whats gone is now a past. Remember we are all walking on a tight rope with just our hands to balance and our concentration towards our goal that lies ahead.
If you look back u will lose your balance..and you will fall down, and trust me there is no time for anyone to realize that you have fallen down…..and people are just going to ignore your cries.
So don’t be stupid. Smile and look ahead n find whats in store for you…and don’t worry…its all going to be alright.

Remember…a roller coaster will not be memorable if the track is smooth. The twists, turns and free fall makes the ride adventurous and amazing.

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4 ways to win my heart

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4 sure ways to win my heart:
Music : Send me songs that explains your feelings.
Books : Dedicate quotes and lines from books to me.
Equality: Believe in equal love, equal gender and never question my identity.
Love : Love fellow humans, Love animals, Love the environment, Love Mother Earth.

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Religion does not provide a moral compass, it comes from within.
You do not have to do the right thing out of fear of hell or for the greed of heaven. You should do the right thing because it is the right thing to do.
The most accepting people are those who do not use a religious book to judge you but instead judge you on the basis of how humane you are.
Religion divides people based on beliefs but Love unites us all.
The day we will be accepting of each other is the day we will have peace on this tiny dot in the universe.

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Dead Inside?

 

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For the most of us a part of us inside is Dead.

No happiness. No Color. Just want this pain to be over. Tired of people. Tired of Life. Tired of fake smiles. Tired of everything. Everything looks dull. Everything looks lifeless, just like how we are feeling inside. Dead.

But what we do not know is that…this is the cycle of life.
We all have to die from inside then take birth as a new person from the ashes..just like a Phoenix.
It is an important part of life for you to grow into a new and improved person. Stronger and wiser.

And for that the old person inside you has to die and then transition into a better you.
Always remember you are not alone.
There are people like you filled with wounds in heart and soul

But one day no matter how deep the wound is..time will heal it. All the pain will fade except the scars. And you know what…the deeper the scar is the stronger you are.

It is all going to be alright. Have some faith in yourself.
One day you will look back to all this and smile. You will be so proud of yourself! Trust me on this.

You are not inconsequential. You matter.
You will get through this.  Just hold on tight.

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