Take a step Forward

“We are too busy perfecting our future and crying over our past that we forget about our present.
Our present starts now and its on us..how to make it worthy of memories when it becomes a past.

Life is not picture perfect and bed of roses… we have to make it one.
If we can’t take a stand for our self.. how can we expect others to do it for us ?

If we don’t stand up for our self, then no matter how many times other stand for us..we will remain in the same stupid place!
We need to take a step forward..this walk is ours and ours alone….no one can take it for us.

Stand up for yourself and for others..
You have no idea what words can do to us and to others.
You can save a life. You just never know :)”

Somebody

Does not matter how much we love the love of our life
Does not matter how much we move on..
Does not matter how much busy we get on with life..

We just doesn’t seem to move on enough
Enough to not give a damn about somebody
Somebody that we once loved.

There is always that somebody ..
Somebody that leaves a tingle in the heart with just a thought

That aching of our soul..
that beating of the heart,
A deep breath to gulp down the though of that very memory.
There is always somebody that walks through our mind..

It’s all gone…
Those times..those moments..
But the memory and the feeling of emptiness..
Never goes away.

That doesn’t mean that we are not happy with what we are..
With what we have achieved
With whom we choose to be with
The path we decided to take and walked on at the end.

But there is always a pain ….
A place in our memories, mind, heart & soul
There is always somebody that we once used to know,
Somebody that we can never get…

Except of course the thoughts that run wild in our mind.
And we take a deep breath and carry on.

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I’d done
But I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
And you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

©Gotye

Stuck in the Spindle

The pain of Loving you and losing you is unbearable,
You were never mine and I was never yours.
I do not know the name of the bond that we shared,
coz it was not a relation after all.

For you it was just friendship,
nothing less,nothing more.

On one end it was me,
dying every second in the extreme agony..
craving for you and loving you.

On the other end it was you,
making just ‘mistakes’..
you don’t have emotions after all.

This rejection is like a stone put over my chest,
I can’t breathe any more.

I know the pain is here to stay,
I can’t stop it, I can’t make it go
I can’t control thinking about you,
I love you every day ..every day little more.

I see you in my dreams..you are in my thoughts,
Standing in the balcony ..walking down the road.
You killed my heart now come and kill my soul,
Coz I can’t take it any more.

Your memory rushes always in my mind.
Running all around, I am a spindle.
I try not to cry but my lips begins to tremble.

Your love rushes in my spine..rushes in my bones.
Just the thought of you is enough to give me spingles.

Your love rushes in my heart in my soul,
I feel it in my toes..I feel it my fingers.

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I will Try

My latest poem ‘I will Try ‘ is inspired by one of my favorite singer P!NK’ song ‘Try’

Falling in Love was not easy..
Falling for you was certainly not right…
I shared with you my feelings….
And you made me feel like I should die….

You never take any blames….
You don’t even tell me why
When I tell that you ruined my life…
I see you take off and fly.

I know the pain is unbearable..
I know that scar is deep down my spine..
My heart is still broken…
But that doesn’t mean that it will never heal
There will be scars but that is it
Its all gonna be Nice

There’ll be pain, there’ll be scattered broken pieces of my soul.
There’ll be memories that we shared…
But that doesn’t mean that I’ll always fall
That doesn’t mean I’ll never be fine
I will fight my fears and I will smile

My eyes are always wet with tears
But that doesn’t mean I’ll always Cry.
I look into your coward eyes and promise ..

I will get up and Try
Yes, I will get up and Try
One day I’ll reach the highest peak of the mountain
I’ll open my wings and I will Fly

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Always

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You took away my heart…
happiness,moments, minutes..
days,hours,seconds..

You took away my mind ..
my body and soul…
and I am aching in pain
I will never be the same again..

i love you and hate you
I really don’t know what to do..
There is so much pain, hurt, tears, miseries..
pain! oh pain! oh pain!
…tell me what you want me to do?

I remember smiling and laughing which i no longer do
I remember the happiness, the magic of life which is no longer true

Your eyes..your smiles..your touch..you lips..
my head in the crook of your arm …
That night… that rain that kiss on my neck..
The memories, the passion..the beautiful wonderful pain…
And then I saw you walk away

I begged, I begged and cried and screamed..
Lying on the floor writhing and wailing in a never ending pain..
but there was one name that was on my lips
it was you it was you..you..only you..
I have gone insane.

I try..I cry.. I laugh and almost get over you…
You come back from the dark and pull me back again
you want me to hurt, to feel the pain..
I love you ..i hate you..i really don’t know what to do
I don’t know what you want ..
What do you want me to do..
What do I do to stop Loving you?

One day I will just pack my bags and walk away..
To where there are just clouds..to the clear blue sky….
One day I will just fly away…….
But I know..I know…it gonna be you ..
You.. you.. you.. just you on my mind
……………………………………………………………….ALWAYS

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Not pretty enough?

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Everyday She looks at her reflection in the mirror and asks herself  ” Am I not pretty enough for Him?”

People say she is pretty…they say that she has a heart of Gold.
But with every compliment there is this pain….pain of emptiness a never ending unfulfilled wish….
If only it was Him….

She long for that moment when He looks at her and thinks ‘WOW! She is Stunning’ and falls in love with her <3

She will always love Him… she can do anything to hear him say that he Loves her more than anything in this world..
If only He could feel her pain”

She tries to walk past her sorrows ….he reminds her of his existence every now and then…and pulls her down..and she is back to circle one.
He walks all over her soul and smiles…and she willingly lets him do that…Over and over again
Over and over again.

This pretty face has no meaning if the person she dies for every moment.. doesn’t care.
There is no meaning to this reflection in everyone’s eyes if she is not beautiful enough for him .

But with all these thoughts clouding her mind.. she looks in her lonely eyes and smiles…..and she tells herself…
“It doesn’t matter….doesn’t matter anymore”

Perhaps Lord has better plans for her…
Perhaps….

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