Burn me

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Love….
I don’t deserve Love
I don’t deserve trust
No, I don’t deserve pity
My fairy tale will never have a happy ending

I deserve pain…lot of pain
And pain is what I am getting
I deserve Hate..too much hate
And hate is what I am getting
I deserve death..because I can’t even meet my own eyes

But where is death?
Where is it? Why am I still alive?
Although you can barely call me as ‘alive’ except that I am still breathing, that is.
Is death disgusted by me too

Please come and take my heart beat away
Spare me of this vicious cycle of old dreams of happiness and hope
Make my shame go away
Throw me in Hell because Heaven, I don’t deserve
Kill me and let me burn
Let me burn and take my breath away

Because living like this is poison

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It hurts

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I dream of your eyes..your beautiful smile knowing very well that your smile is not for me but I just can’t ….
I am so broken…I am so useless. I am so much in love with you
I love you so much that it hurts

I always feel your hand in my hair..your eyes on me..your lips on mine. I donno what is real..what is a dream and what are just memories.
Memories…that haunt me when I sleep..drug my dreams and make me feel fulfilled. Memories…that sting when I open my eyes and look up at the empty space. Memories of you telling me how much you care for me. And memories of you breaking me and going out of the door..leaving me crying and begging for you to stop
I love you so much that it hurts

I was so naive…I was so happy and confused and bewildered in love with you..but I never wanted anything from you…All I wanted was you to understand me..nothing more
Its all my fault..all my fault that I let myself love you..that I told you how much you mean to me..let you near me..and let you break me apart
There is nothing left inside me..except the memories playing again and again..And there is nothing left for me to feel…except the longing and the pain….so much pain

You can tear me apart..you can rip me to pieces..you can break me down..you can laugh at my pain…but I will never stop loving you

I love you so much that it hurts
I will never forgive myself for it
Coz this love is a curse

Mea culpa, mea maxima culpa

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Renegade Desires

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Our desires are like Pandora’s box
Its forbidden to touch, to open, to explore
But the hunger and curiosity of the clandestine cravings swells
And with it the thoughts of passion.

We get so obssessed with the idea of the forbidden feelings
That we forget the rational, the right and the wrong.
Once we tease ourselves with the thoughts of the exploits
The desire to flung it open increases inevitably.

We touch it and let it take control
And we tell ourselves..’just once’.
We taste and experience the t‌iny part of it
And the libido and the fire of amorous yearning rises

We close our eyes, open our heart and devour it.
The lust takes over us and we become its slave
It starts to rule our heart, our mind, our body
It corrupts us completley

And we become enslaved to the illicit desires
Well aware that its not right
And yet we crave for more

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Kya se Kya huein

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Kabhi kabi humaare zindagi main aise gam hotein hain jinhe kisiko bayan nahi kar saktein..
Kyonki hum jaantein hain ki in dard ki gehraion ko aur koi nahi samajh sakta humaare alaawa..

Kabhi kabhi humein andhere main rona parta hai is dar se ki kahi apna hi aks humein rota hua na dekhle…
Dartein hai hum ki apne is haal pe kahi khud ko yaki na ho…ki hum kya thein aur kya ho chalein hain.

Humein malalal toh is baat ka hai ki humnein humesha galat insa pe yaki kiya…
Hum toh unki zindagi main khud shama ban ke jalein unhe roshni dikaanein magar jab humein jarurat pari toh woh humaari hi zindagi andhera kar gae..

Hum toh itna roe ki kambakht in ashqon ne bhi humein dhokha de diya ab to…sukhein palkon se ab toh hum rone ka ehsaas kartein hai…

Ab hum toh hum na rahein ab toh…

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Ishq…tere Jalwe

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Ishq tere Jalwe…
Tu hi yeh agan bujhata bhi hai
Tu hi yeh agan lagata bhi hai

Kabhi kehta hai woh mera nahi
Kabhi kehta hai unpe kisi aur ka haq nahi
Kabhi unki yadon main rulata bohot hai
Kabhi unki yadon main satata bohot hai
Kabhi tu de deta hain unki yadon main khushi

Ishq tere Jalwe…
Tu hi yeh agan bujhata bhi hai
Tu hi yeh agan lagata bhi hai

Kabhi unki tapan deta hai sukun
Kabhi ehsaas hota hai ki woh apna nahi paraya hai
Kabhi yeh dil kehta hai ki unke saath ji letein hai do pal
Chahe yeh duniya aag lagae
Chahe woh khuda jahannum dikhae

Ishq tere Jalwe…
Tu hi yeh agan bujhata bhi hai
Tu hi yeh agan lagata bhi hai

Ishq tere jalwe..tu satata bhi..tu rulata bhi
Haye Ishq tere jalwe..tu manata bhi..tu hasata bhi

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Ijazat hai tujhe

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I am ready to break my heart all over again…if I could just hold you one more time.

Ijazat hai tujhe..chule fir mujhe
In khamoshiyon se achhi tera gam hi sahi
Tut jaaun main baar baar manjoor hai mujhe
Bas apni agosh main le fir mujhe…

Ijazat hai tujhe..chule fir mujhe

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Le aaj izhaare-e-dil karta hun tujhse e Humnashi…
Meri har dhadkan main hai bas tu hi basi.

Jo duniya kehti tu gair hai meri nahi…
Aisi duniya ki mujhe koi fiqar nahi.

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I wish I had

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“I wish I had an amazing girl in my life,
We would be best friends and lovers at the same time,
We would make love and make dinner,
We would laugh and cry and pillow fight,
I would marry her and would carry her in my arms,
I wish I had an amazing girl in my life.”

But fuck this Country….I have no Girl…I have no freedom…I have no rights.

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